Thursday, September 17, 2009 ✿ 10:46 PM ✿ 0 Shutter Comments
yeah my mood still freaking lousy.. things did improve tis mrng.. bt aft work, its a total turnaround.. things go upside dwn once again.. was so looking fwd to meeting him, bt fuck, aft my work he finally call, say no money watch movie.. ..so he go hm bathe first den will come meet me to pass my cert..i wanted to treat him for movie he dun wan.. mins aft, he say to me : b im goin teng's hse to stayover tonite.. coz tml sports day so go chit chat n cn go sch tgt lo.. ok im getting a lil pissed off, wondering how come every now & then he kp goin.. is like tues only he juz went? more reason for e frequent stayover? "BONDING" WIT THEM..
okie.. im dumbfounded.. i knw im juz being ridiculous n unreasonable nt happy tat he alwaz go.. i can find no reason to stop him either.. its my own fault for not spending more time wit my own frenz, alwaz waitin for him to meet me, alwaz go hm early if i go out.. oh he say he wun let me ctrl him ever again, bt in e 1st place my ctrl of him ever succeed? NAH!
i knw watever im posting now he sure will dulan, y? bcoz ppl r seeing it.. im criticizing him, im blaming him, everytin is not my fault, i push all e fault to others.. yeah tats wat i am in his heart..n yeah im lidat.. screw me ! okiee he supposed to pass me e cert, in e end i trained n bused all e way to his hse, coz he cant b bothered to meet me n say he will leave e cert outside his hse for me to take.. in e end i did c him standing outside e hse, i took e cert from his hand n juz stormed off.. quarrel all e way hm via sms, break no break n break no break.. he still went on wit his plan to enjoy.. wun gv a damn to my feeling.. say break oso me, say dun break oso me.. say break liao, after tat i will cry.. ya weird rite? zZz..
i tink im nt suitable to b in a r/s.. im juz overly possessive.. i can nv trust a guy.. im so tiredd. i hv went overboard.. i cant ctrl.. all i ask for is more time for me, n not everyday wit frenz.. e only time we tok is when at nite.. only few mins to an hr of our time.. things r alwaz so sweet in e beginning..as time goes by, more friction arised.. friction juz gets worse causing a burnt in e heart.. i really duno wat to do.. im not acting pitiful, mind u ! im juz being over emotional..juz bcoz of a small thing, im making life miserable.. somebody plz make me come to senses.. am i really in e wrong ?
im just nt a gd gf i guess..
okie.. im dumbfounded.. i knw im juz being ridiculous n unreasonable nt happy tat he alwaz go.. i can find no reason to stop him either.. its my own fault for not spending more time wit my own frenz, alwaz waitin for him to meet me, alwaz go hm early if i go out.. oh he say he wun let me ctrl him ever again, bt in e 1st place my ctrl of him ever succeed? NAH!
i knw watever im posting now he sure will dulan, y? bcoz ppl r seeing it.. im criticizing him, im blaming him, everytin is not my fault, i push all e fault to others.. yeah tats wat i am in his heart..n yeah im lidat.. screw me ! okiee he supposed to pass me e cert, in e end i trained n bused all e way to his hse, coz he cant b bothered to meet me n say he will leave e cert outside his hse for me to take.. in e end i did c him standing outside e hse, i took e cert from his hand n juz stormed off.. quarrel all e way hm via sms, break no break n break no break.. he still went on wit his plan to enjoy.. wun gv a damn to my feeling.. say break oso me, say dun break oso me.. say break liao, after tat i will cry.. ya weird rite? zZz..
i tink im nt suitable to b in a r/s.. im juz overly possessive.. i can nv trust a guy.. im so tiredd. i hv went overboard.. i cant ctrl.. all i ask for is more time for me, n not everyday wit frenz.. e only time we tok is when at nite.. only few mins to an hr of our time.. things r alwaz so sweet in e beginning..as time goes by, more friction arised.. friction juz gets worse causing a burnt in e heart.. i really duno wat to do.. im not acting pitiful, mind u ! im juz being over emotional..juz bcoz of a small thing, im making life miserable.. somebody plz make me come to senses.. am i really in e wrong ?
im just nt a gd gf i guess..
